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Variables.

There are so many and I confess that I sometimes allow myself to become overwhelmed by them.

It's easy to do really, to let it all come crashing on you unfiltered and to crush yourself under the weight of what seems impossible odds and futile efforts. I was feeling that the other day, when I felt.... disconnected....

A large part of my problem is that I am not, (as my wife says) a "True" Virgo. What she means when she says that is that I am not terribly organized.

I'm kind of organized, sort of.

(not really)

I don't know what my problem is in that area, the organization bit. I mean my studio is organized, clean. I know where things are and can find what I want when I want it.

But when it comes to that elusive "getting-things-done" gene, I don't have it.

This is an area I consistently try and fail in. Honestly, it's a damn thorn I keep sticking in my own side and for whatever reason I can't figure out a system simple, stupid and easy enough for me to keep on top of the things that I want and need to do.

This is a little public declaration that could be seen as foolish, I mean I am after all telling the world that I have a problem doing things I say I'm going to do, but it seems in this year of challenges to myself this is one more area that I can challenge myself in to improve. One step at a time....

What I crave is to figure out a way to do this that is freeing, not enslaving. I don't want every moment, minute, microsecond strapped, chopped, diced and fit into some sort of productivity grid of rigidity and uninspiring dreariness.

*sigh*

Any pointers??

Today's portrait was taken in a moment of freedom, in that space where I was being and enjoying without the encumberedness, and I want to expand that throughout, to alleviate the weight of self-imposed futility.

Title(s): Portrait a Day - 239

Size: 6"x9"

Price: $15

Media: Digital Photograph

Date: 07/13/2010

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